Snow was now feeling the impact from both Yuki's words and the fact that what he'd said...His heart was too honest and he knew it was going to be harder to explain himself or to justify when Serah was...Serah was his whole world. But there was a hard truth he had to accept, and it might hurt but if he didn't hurt himself then he'd only end up hurting Yuki instead. If nothing else, Snow knew he could at least take the hurt even if it really lanced through the heart.
"I..." There's a definite hesitation as he mulled this over. No one said his life was easy, or that the way things were now that they weren't complicated, even if he put it into words for the other to understand Snow wasn't certain Yuki would. His feelings were never just for show.
"She was my wife-to-be. I promised to be hers. But...I can't count on what-if's. The thing is, I told you before. S-she's...gone." He said it at a near whisper, his fist clenching so hard the leather creaked. There were tears in his eyes which is a big part of the reason he couldn't face the other right then. "I didn't want to admit it to myself, that this crystal meant goodbye. Maybe she'll always be a part of me in a way. Giving me hope, in her own way. She would like to see me happy, I know that much. She was very important to me. But that doesn't mean that I'm saying things lightly, alright? I get how it sounds. I'd just...appreciate if you'd stop acting like I'm insincere."
"But I get that you don't think I'm serious. That's fine. I get it." He rose up from the chair, turning away from Yuki and towards the door. "I'm not sure what could happen. I don't know. No one does. I respect if you'd want to dismiss what I said even if I'd rather you didn't. I can't..fix things to be perfect or to give you a perfect answer. I'm not...that great." Snow's voice was thick now as he tried to keep from letting the tears fall. This was very hard on him. And the "proof" that Yuki wanted, Snow wasn't sure he could give.
"If she came back, I don't think I'd know what to do. I'd be more lost than I am now. I don't think...she's ever coming back. But I do know one thing: I'm not the type who would go and tell you something like this only so I could take it back later."
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"I..." There's a definite hesitation as he mulled this over. No one said his life was easy, or that the way things were now that they weren't complicated, even if he put it into words for the other to understand Snow wasn't certain Yuki would. His feelings were never just for show.
"She was my wife-to-be. I promised to be hers. But...I can't count on what-if's. The thing is, I told you before. S-she's...gone." He said it at a near whisper, his fist clenching so hard the leather creaked. There were tears in his eyes which is a big part of the reason he couldn't face the other right then. "I didn't want to admit it to myself, that this crystal meant goodbye. Maybe she'll always be a part of me in a way. Giving me hope, in her own way. She would like to see me happy, I know that much. She was very important to me. But that doesn't mean that I'm saying things lightly, alright? I get how it sounds. I'd just...appreciate if you'd stop acting like I'm insincere."
"But I get that you don't think I'm serious. That's fine. I get it." He rose up from the chair, turning away from Yuki and towards the door. "I'm not sure what could happen. I don't know. No one does. I respect if you'd want to dismiss what I said even if I'd rather you didn't. I can't..fix things to be perfect or to give you a perfect answer. I'm not...that great." Snow's voice was thick now as he tried to keep from letting the tears fall. This was very hard on him. And the "proof" that Yuki wanted, Snow wasn't sure he could give.
"If she came back, I don't think I'd know what to do. I'd be more lost than I am now. I don't think...she's ever coming back. But I do know one thing: I'm not the type who would go and tell you something like this only so I could take it back later."